More To Life

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go
There's gotta be more to life
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure...
There's gotta be more
Than wanting more
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I
'm half-way out the door
Onto the next thing,
I'm searching for something that's missing
I'm wanting more
I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed....Always... Always...

I will come to you

When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk to walk beside you
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
When the night is dark and stormy
You wont have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
Sometimes when all your dreams may have seen better days
And you dont know how or why, but youve lost your way
Have no fear when your tears are fallin
I will hear your spirit callin
And I swear Ill be there come what may
cause even if we cant be together
Well be friends now and forever
And I swear that Ill be there come what may
When the night is dark and stormy
You wont have to reach out for me
I will come to you
Oh I will come to you
We all need somebody we can turn to
Someone wholl always understand
So if you feel that your soul is dyin
And you need the strength to keep tryin
Ill reach out and take your hand

"How Did I Fall In Love With You?"

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone
Those days are gone, and
I want you so much
The night is long and
I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to beAlone tonight
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble
I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be, Alone tonight
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?[
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah
I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall,in love ,with you?

SHOW...

I'm just a little bit
Caught in the middle
Life is a mazeAnd love is a riddle
I don't know where to goI can't do it alone
(I've tried) And I don't know why
Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop'
Cuz it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot
To be something
I'm notI'm a fool
Out of love'
Cuz I just can't get enough
I am just a little girl
Lost in the moment
I'm so scared
But don't show it
I can't figure it out
It's bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It's a jokeNobody knows
They've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

"One Step At A Time"

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch
You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen and we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew
You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chanceIn your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustratedAnd you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sightwhen you need to find the strength
It's your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

I just want to be ordinary

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
Anything to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
accident, turibulent, succulent
opulent permanent, no way
I wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby

Is it enough?
Is it enough?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

Is it enough?
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

Pieces

I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

If you believe it's in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I'm better off on my own.

I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it,
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me,
It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

Bad Day - 17 April 2008

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Its My Life

Its hard to me to write what happen in my life because I'm not good in writing.So i choose the best song chosen to describe :

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

My personality now..I'm change

~Life is too short to wake up with regrets.
~So i love the people who treat me right..
~Forget about the one's who don't. Thats mean I only threat people nicely if them threat me nicely.
~I believe everything happens for a reason.
~I want grab all chances that come into my life. If it changes my life, let it.
~Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.
~My mind is like is like a parachute. It functions only when open. Nobody can force me to think or to do what i dont want do.

Changes...

i'm gonna change....i am new born aiza, with new air, with new appearance, style....i just want to show to the 'HELL THEM" that i can go far...i still can archieve what i want WITHOUT THEM BEHIND ME! I KNOW I CAN! This morning, i really feel fresh..now i know what will make me happy..haahha..i'm gonna change....dont be suprise with the new aiza....i love myself so much..i dont want hurt it anymore...hmmm....now..i'm still waiting for my second sweet revenge...one day...:)

My 1st Sweet Revenge

akhirnyer...pembalasan yang pertama sudah terbayar....dah kata ...takkan bahagia hidup mereka yang suka nak jatuhkan diri aku....ihkhihkhihk...tinggal pembalasan yang terakhir..yang nie makan masa sikit...

Tuk Cik Niza...

alah cik niza...biasalah tur..tu semua adat garam kita kerja...aku pun sama mcm ko gak..sekarang nie aku rasa mcm satu ofis put da highest xpectation on me...tapi nak buat mcm ner...kena buktikan keupayaan diri gak kan...kita boleh buat..ko kena ingt kita fresh graduate...apa yang kita blajar lain giler apa yang kita kejer skang...situasi ko skang sah2 lain kan sebab ko dah tukar bidang...aku nie...yang masih meneruskan perjuangan dlm bidang nie..pun rasa mcm semua benda lain..bnyk sgt benda tak tau..mcm tak pernah blajar ajer...rasa bangang sgt...tapi kita kena blajar gak...it takes times k....kejerlah kat mana2 pun..semua sama ajer...tak per...yang penting kita willing to learn...bak kata ex-bos aku..sebodoh2 manusia kalo dia rjn blajar..dia akan pndi gak k....sama2lah kita doakan kejayaan kita k...

p/s:smalam aku balik kejer dah bantai nangis2 dlm lif...wuuwuwuu

sedih+blank+blur

"kenapa ek..malam nie..semua benda rasa tak betul..perasaan bercampur2 ajer...dah tak larat dah nak hadapi semua ni lagie...tuhan berikanlah kekuatan pada diri...hilangkan rasa kesunyian dan sepi yang melanda diri ketika ini....amin.........."

Antara sistem,komputer,laptop atau pun aku yang biul???

ishk..biul...komputer memang biul..huhuh....kadang2 aku tak faham komputer...elok ajer sistem aku run ..tak der error pun...knp masa presentation hari tur dia buat perangai???eeeeeeeeeee!geramnyer aku........

AnTara Cinta dAn Cita-Cita

" Kejarlah cita-cita sebelum cinta, apabila tercapainya cita-cita maka dengan sendirinya cinta itu akan hadir"

betul tur...antara cita-cita dan cinta..tiada apa yang lebih penting dari cita-cita..apabila semua matlamat hidup dan impian telah dicapai, mesti hati kita gembira kan?bila hati dah gembira secara tidak langsung,tanpa kita sedari cinta itu akan datang sendiri...jadi..kenapa perlu mengejar cinta??sebab akhirnya ia akan datang pada masa yang sesuai,cuma kita perlu bersabar menanti...hmm..satu mutiara kata yang sungguh bermakna buat remaja seperti aku....

UcaPan MaaF

apa yang ada pada ucapan maaf sebenarnya??kenapa perlu meminta maaf dan bilakah waktu yang sesuai untuk mengucapakannya??sekarang kebanyakan dari kita hanya mengucapkan maaf tanpa mendalami maksud maaf yang sebenar....senang2 hati meminta maaf dan kemudian membuat kesalahan yang sama...then,what the use of the "maaf" actually??orang kata kita kena selalu memaafkan orang lain baru orang akan memaafkan diri kita juga..tapi..macam mana kalo kesalahan yang dibuat terlalu sukar untuk dimaafkan??mcm mana ek....mungkin untuk memaafkan seseorang itu senang tapi untuk melupakan segala kesalahan lalu, tidak!!!ia akan terus kekal dalam ingatan sebagai peringatan dan pengajaran dalam hodup dalam meniti cabaran hidup dan juga dalam memilih kawan...biarlah apa mereka nak kata...yang rasa pahit,derita,tekanan bukan mereka...hanya ALLAH S.W.T yang tahu betapa beratnya hati menanggung segala derita di hati nie...bukan mudah untuk terima hinaan dan cabaran...tapi apa yang nak berlaku..sudah pun berlaku...biarkan saja masa menentukan segala-galanya...biarkan lah diri ini mencari ruangnya sendiri..berikanlah masa pada diri dalam mencari nafas hidup tersendiri...bukan mudah untuk diri ini menaruh kepercayaan pada sesiapa...tetapi kenapa mereka perlu menghancurkan kepercayaan itu?? mungkin cukup setakat ini aku percaya kepada orang..yang pasti, kini aku tidak akan mudah percaya kepada orang lagi..cukup semua nie..!

Apa YanG DiCari??

Jika kamu memancing ikan.... setelah
ikan itu terlekat dimata kail
hendaklah kamu mengambil terus ikan
itu.... janganlah sesekali kamu
lepaskan ia semula ke dalam air begitu
sahaja.... kerana ia akan sakit oleh
kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu
dan mungkin akan menderita selagi ia
masih hidup.

Begitulah juga setelah kamu memberi
banyak pengharapan kepada seseorang...
setelah ia mula menyayangimu hendaklah
kamu menjaga hatinya.... janganlah
sesekali kamu terus meninggalkannya
begitu sahaja.... kerana dia akan
terluka oleh kenangan bersamamu dan
mungkin tidak dapat melupakan
segalanya selagi dia mengingatimu. ...

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada,
jangan terlalu mengharap pada
takungannya dan janganlah menganggap
ia begitu teguh.... cukuplah sekadar
keperluanmu. ... Apabila sekali ia
retak.... tentu sukar untuk kamu
menampalnya semula.... akhirnya ia
dibuang.... sedangkan jika kamu cuba
membaikinya mungkin ia masih boleh
digunakan lagi....

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki
seseorang terimalah seadanya....
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya
dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya
begitu istimewa.... anggaplah dia
manusia biasa. Apabila sekali dia
melakukan kesilapan bukan mudah bagi
kamu untuk menerimanya. ... Akhirnya
kamu kecewa dan meninggalkannya.
Sedangkan jika kamu memaafkannya boleh
jadi hubungan kamu akan berterusan
hingga keakhirnya.. ..

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan
nasi... yang kamu pasti baik untuk
dirimu. Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat.
Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba mencari
makanan yang lain.. Terlalu ingin
mengejar kelazatan. Kelak, nasi itu
akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh
memakannya. Kamu akan menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu
dengan seorang insan... yang kamu
pasti membawa kebaikan kepada dirimu.
Menyayangimu. Mengasihimu. Mengapa
kamu berlengah, cuba membandingkannya
dengan yang lain. Terlalu mengejar
kesempurnaan. Kelak, kamu
kehilangannya dan kamu akan menyesal
apabila dia beralih arah.

Bila Nak Matang???

Susahnyer hidup nie...tapi kita tak boleh mengeluh apa yang berlaku...adakah diri semakin matang dengan tragedi yang melanda dalam diri nie sejak akhir-akhir nie?? (ala-ala tragedi oktober tapi ni version 2007 :) )....bila lah aku nak berpikiran matang nie...huhuhu...anyway to nija..thanks 4 remind me always...and being with me while i'm down...thanks for everything...mcm aku pernah cakapkan..tak semua benda boleh diluahkan dengan kata-kata tapi apa yang penting....buka mata seluas2nya dalam membina dan mengejar cita-cita dan impian kita....nija...aku sebenarnya nak cakap dengan ko malu...so aku cakap dalam blog nie...hmmm....aku rasa tertipu sgt nie....sakit betul hati nie....tapi aku kena tahan perasaan tur dulu sebab my system is most important than everything.....uwauwauwuawuau......aku dah penat menangis sowang2 nie.....huhuhuhu....kalo peja menangis sebab final year project..aku menangis sebab reason bodos....uhuhuhu...bila aku nak matang nie????

Dimasa kita ingt kawan, ia penuhbermakna.. tetapi adakah seorg kawan itu igt terhadap kite atau tidak...adakah terungkap kata 'besh frenz 4ever' itu hnya la tipu semata mata..seorg kwn tidak sama dengan kawan yang lain.. igt la bahawa tiada pengganti kwn yang baik melainkan diri sendiri


kata-kata tur aku dapat dalam buletin seorang kawan dalam friendster...dari dulu lagi aku mencari jawapan kepada persoalan sebegini..erm..mungkin ada kebenaran dalam kata2 tur..sebab hanya kita yang mengenali diri kita...hanya kita jer yang tau kehendak diri...hmmm...what is life??